I’m a very impatient person. If you know me you’ll be learning nothing new today but read on anyway.
There are several things going on in my life right now which are working on a timeline. Not really a deadline or anything, just a schedule I guess.
Throw in the fact that I have anxiety and you can imagine what happens when things aren’t moving along at the rate I feel they should.
Yep, it’s like a train wreck.
My mind can’t seem to comprehend little things like I’m not the only person in the world. To me, I’m the most important, but unfortunately others don’t see it my way and I continue to bite my nails while waiting “in the order in which it was received.”
I just want things to be done, well, now. Like right now. I’ve got things to do, you know? (Like no one else does, right?)
Having control over myself and what I do isn’t good enough. I need to be able to control EVERYTHING in my life.
Bad drivers, rude cashiers, slow waiters, the postal service….the list could go on forever.
Obviously this isn’t possible (unless I eventually succeed in my plans for world domination) but if I can’t control it, I don’t know how to deal with it.
You would think with all of the things I do (work, reading, blogging, the occasional television program, music, obsessively refreshing Twitter) that they would occupy my time and I wouldn’t even realize I’ve been waiting.
Nope, doesn’t help a bit, because even while I’m doing all those things I’m still thinking about all of the other things that aren’t happening, could happen, won’t happen, etc.
It’s funny how the mind works.
Any suggestions on how not to be so spaztastic? How do I deal with what I cannot control?